Music - it speaks better than I can.

This song ... for my specific situation.  It really is what is in my heart.  It might bring one of you comfort too:

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ve2pS-jxXz0

 

Lyrics

Every word you're saying is a lie
Run away my dear
But every sign will say your heart is dead

Bury all the memories
Cover them with dirt
Where's the love we once had
Our destiny's unsure

Why can't you see what we had
Let the fire burn the ice
Where's the love we once had
Is it all a lie?

And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I

Closer to insanity
Buries me alive

Where's the life we once had
It cannot be denied

Why can't you see what we had
Let the fire burn the ice
Where's the love we once had
Is it all a lie?

And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I

You run away
You hide away
To the other side of the universe
where you're safe from all that hunts you down
But the world has gone
Where you belong
And it feels too late so you're moving on
Can you find your way back home?

And I still wonder
Why heaven has died
The skies are all falling
I'm breathing but why?
In silence I hold on
To you and I

Every word you're saying is a lie.