Oh my life my life.... I am ADHD. I was diagnosed by my general practice doctor. I can't afford therapy. I know I strongly need therapy. I don't think ADHD is all that is wrong with me. If you allow me to diagnose myself I would say I have anxiety disorder and depression. I can't hold a real job. When it comes down to getting work done I just can't do it. A big part of my anxiety is the fear of failing. I always fail. I make stupid mistakes. I know how to do things but then I screw up. I also fell like I have social anxiety. I always feel like people will hate me or I will say something impulsive and stupid. When I get nervous I do say inappropriate things.
This in no way helps my marriage. My husband is smart. He is a hands on learner. As life goes on I see more and more that he does not have as much common sense. Which is crazy to me because I don't have a problem with common sense. I think everybody can do anything better than me. I guess this comes into play a showing of major confidence problems. My husband and I have major communication problems. I do work part time (18hr/wk) My job anybody could do. I am technically a housewife. It annoys my husband when he comes home and I have done nothing all day. My house is quite messy. There is no organization. My brain hits overload with everything I need to do and then I do nothing. I've read all the books and I know what I should do but just end up doing nothing.
My husband and I got married when I was 17. I have never been able to be on my own and learn about me and be in my own head. I don't know what to do.