Pain and Loving someone with ADD

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.  I think that the definition of 1insanity may be that of a person who is married to someone with ADD and hoping that someday, someway, some new treatment will come along and work.  Why does this have to hurt so much!!!  I told myself I was not going to get too hopeful about my husband really wanting to love me and be with me.  He promised, but he has promised for so many years, that this time he was really going to try.  He was going to come to this site and continually gain more insite and knowledge to use to help himself.  Instead the site he loves to go on is a website that has the world of young, pretty girls out there just waiting to talk to someone who has a nice word to say. Or to tell them they are hot! I am small, I am blonde, why can't I be the hot one for him!  Why does this have to hurt so much!  I knew it was not going to work.  But I thought, just one more try.  Just one more!  This time it will work.  This time he will have the tools he needs to overcome his desire to fulfill his own needs over that of anyone elses.   Either that is the definition of a desparate woman or an insane one.  I just want to be loved by the man who promised he would love me!  It is so unfair!!