Still getting defensive about money !


whenever I ask about our money situation I get a mouthful. My husband had a heart attack in feb and has stopped smoking and taking drugs which ate up a lot of our funds. I used to work in musical theatre , but after 20 years needed to move away from that genre. So I do freelance now. I've learnt so much on what you say and what to feel etc. But I can't get my head around the fact that I feel like something is up. I'm not a money orientated person. When he gives me money every week I sort out all of the bills and do the food shopping . As I said everything else's out his adhd I'm learning about and sorting , but this is a tricky one. It's about trust and on that level I don't think I do