This will be my second post on here and I'm still not sure how to bring the thought storm in my head to paper. So I apologize for any confusion.
So I have ADHD, which is basically concert hall of thought and distraction in my head. It sucks. It's depressing. It's been a life long, and only recently identified, torture of being judged and then disregard with the trash.
So I apologize a lot and for everything. I apologize for my mistakes which I should. I always apologize for not agreeing with an idea, getting out of bed early, going to bed later than I'm told, for having a deep voice, facial expression that people don't like (I have Resting bitch face and I owe apologies it seems). I have never in my life felt so worthless. Am I that much of a screw up. Is this all my fault like I've been told. I mean my own mother says I'm evil and have a demon inside me, even though I have never been in trouble, hold down a great job and support anyone's I can.
I just don't know. I try so hard to be my best, but no matter how many positive and help things I do, all anyone wants to tell me about is my every failing.
i just don't know.
im sorry for my ramblings