I've done what I always do, and went full immersion into attachments and patterns.
I've had several breakthroughs in major ways.
It feels like: what was once hidden, is now exposed. I can see the biggest picture yet, the overall templates laid over each other and where the daylight is coming through ( the holes ), and how it all fits together and actually works.
It's reality, whether I like it not, but I wouldn't have it any other way.
Today, I'm also going into my new therapist to facilitate Ketanine Therapy for my CPTSD. I won't know until I try, so today starts a new road to go down.
I feel reinforced, and not confused. The mystery appears to be gone.
Just an FYI. Because this is what I do.