It was a tough decision over which forum I should put this thread in, because it touches several of them... Here's it goes, because right now its a frustration.
So, a lot of you guys have been following me along since I first started posting here. To keep it concise, I feel like I've come a long way in a short time. I'm zeroing in on a medication and a dosage that's working well. Between my counselor-coach and the forums here, I'm sorting through the landfill of emotional garbage I've collected over the years, I'm slowly but surely making progress on my "primary" ADHD symptoms, and I've effectively put the kibosh on my "secondary" ADHD symptoms. As far as I can tell, I'm doing better as a husband (as far as DW will give me the opportunity, for the moment), I'm doing a LOT better as a father, projects are being completed (as far as finances allow, at least) at a steady pace, I'm even getting more productive and responsible at work (though it wasn't an issue before).
In general, I feel better about myself than I have in years. I am in better control of myself than I have been for a long time. I feel more like "myself" than I have at any time since we graduated college, got a real job, got married and had kids. I just weighed in at -50 pounds since my heaviest two years ago. I'm looking into going back to school for the second time (I've already have two undergraduate degrees into Physics and Industrial Electronics... I'm thinking about going back to get a Master of Engineering degree online from the University of Chicago, since the lab I work for will pay for it 100%). I'm even looking into regaining a few old hobbies, and picking up a few new ones, once I get the spare cash. I may be a little bit optimistic about this self-appraisal, but I'm happy with myself right now.
Money's a little bit tight right now, since I'm sinking a lot of money into paying down debt. I don't have a lot to spare. School registration fees for the kids were a bit more expensive than I'd anticipated, gas prices are up again, and the heat wave/drought pumped up our utilities bills a little bigger than usual this summer. School is starting in a few weeks, and I'll need to find money for school lunches...
The problem is, the one additional expense this year is my collective ADHD treatments: medication, doctor visits to monitor the med hunt, and counselor/coach visits. Our insurance is helpful in that most of it is covered by co-payments, but the Vyvanse is considerably more expensive (but also works much better for me) than the Concerta I had been taking, and there's enough appointments each month that they begin to add up.
All that to say... It might be necessary for me to at least cut back on the counselor/coach visits, if not cut them out all together, temporarily until my debt reduction plan frees up more monthly cash flow. It worries me a little that I might start backsliding if I do, though. I think that I'm at a point where I can get by with less coaching and counseling less often, but I don't want to be too over-confident about it.
Bleargh. The kids have to eat; they're most important. That thought alone will keep me in line.
Thanks for listening.