I havent been on here in a while but I think I am going to have to get out of this relationship. My hurts are told to him again and again about every 3 months (because i am not seeing change) , and last night it all came out AGAIN. I explained to him that the three things are 1. Lack of intimacy 2. He is not meeting his commitments for debt 3. he has not kept promises to me.
These three things by themselves would not be so bad but when they are all together concurrently, it is a big alarm bell for me and I am sad, hurt and scared.
I told him the lack of intimacy is really hurting me. We have a non sexual relationship now, and he told me last night he doesnt know why. I calmly told him that most relationships just dont last if there is not that intimacy, and that I was not a young woman anymore, and felt like I was wasting my life and felt like i have put myself in a vulnerable situation that I do not see a future of. I told him that he has not met the commitments to me, and that really hurts, as I have tried to be patient, and feel like I have no stability here anymore. I am worried about work, not taking opportunities that are away from 'home' (which I moved to so that him and I could be together) and wondering why I am banging my head against the wall.
I have been crying all day because I dont know what to do, I am in so much pain, feel so vulnerable and sad, and he cant figure out why I am not outside 'playing' in the yard with him as he hyper focuses on something else.
I just dont know what else to do. And I cant talk to anyone about it because I dont have anyone I can trust about it. I feel like I am going crazy here and I just dont know what else I should or can do.