exhausted and frustrated

I can't take it anymore. I don't know what to do. I've read most of the posts on this board and several books, but I really have no idea what to do anymore. It's a LONG story, but I attempted suicide twice a few months ago. There was one horrible, nasty fight a month after the second attempt, but there has been no verbal abuse since then. Why do I stay? A loaded question.

I'm grateful for this board. This is only my second post, but reading what you all have to say makes a huge difference. I'm really trying to understand his ADHD (undiagnosed and he won't consider getting checked out for it, eventhough he says he has it) and how best to deal with it. I get so angry, but sometimes I see a sad, broken little boy in him and my heart breaks. This roller coaster is wearing me down to nothing. I'm really trying to hang in here for both of us.