Hey all, hubby is in counseling, I am in counseling and last week we went to a marriage counselor. He is now on meds also. However...I have this horrible feeling in my gut that it's just too late. I just don't feel like I am in love with him anymore, and I am not one to forget past hurts very easily. I wish with all my heart and soul that I felt in love with him. I don't want to be in love with anyone else or to start over. I am just so incredibly pissed at what this has done to me and to our marriage. All the wasted years feeling like I was nuts or a bitch or expecting too much. I am filled with resentment and grief. I wish I could flip a switch and convince my heart that he is doing his best and to just love him. We had it...the relationship dream...we were the envy of other couples. And then a veil was lifted and I realized all these years most of my depression/health issues was coping with his untreated ADHD. And in a way, I wish the veil had never been lifted. I DESPERATELY want to feel in love with him again. This disorder is absolutely devasting, and people who aren't in this bubble have no clue what we are going through.