Four months away from Wedding...

...and I think my ADHD fiance has blown a gasket.

We have been at each other's throats the last few days. Has blew up the other day about bridesmaids dresses and bad mouthed my mom and sister (saying they ruined the wedding) even though she's the one who doesn't have the patience to listen and have a conversation about things. Instead she hear's the first sentence someone says and tunes them out. She has gone to say they she "doesn't care about the wedding and everyone else can do whatever they want." She gets mad at her mother, at me and everyone else. She goes through fits of crying and yelling so harsh that I do not know what to do. I tried to stay calm (and I am usually successful at it) but I blew my top this past weekend. I couldn't help it. Of course, I was blamed because I am the non-ADHD who overreacted and that's not what I should do. But what the heck? She was yelling so harsh I couldn't be the punching bag anymore.

Every morning I wake up an extra 45 minutes early to make sure that she has lunch, coffee and her things for work - oh and to make sure she gets up for work. Any day that she is off and I have to go in it's always "call out of work" or "how come you never plan a day off." And then she sleeps all day because she has nothing to do or no motivation (her words). I will come home and she makes me feel like crap since she didn't do anything all day.

I'm sorry -- back to the wedding. Now I know that planning a wedding can be very stressful and there is a lot of back and forth between all parties. So there might be some disagreements or compromises. But what I don' t need is my future wife to block everyone out and hold on to grudges.

I don't know. I guess I am just venting here. It's just frustrating and I am really doubting my future marriage. It seems like it's only going to end in disaster.