full of thoughts,

I am about to read my second ADHD book,now "driven to distraction" I am more fond in finding information and learning more about ADHD and how it affects the ADHD person himself,well it is also "of course" helping me in my relationship with DH,and I have been, and I must say, much much better with myself and dealing with the disorder.Anyhow, I still have a lot to learn and to encounter as well, something just crossed my mind while reading the great book and I was "AGAIN" wondering what made me think something was wrong with dear hubby?to actually land at blogs and forums in the first place,it can't be a normal argument between two people that always tend to happen so then what?even though I knew that deep down inside these fights were out of the ordinary,I never looked at it as a "disorder" and then I thought very carefully what made me so enthusiastic to find answers?.Looking back at a social event we had a couple of months ago,DH and myself went to visit a good friend an entrepreneur,a fine respectful gentleman,so we sat down with a few laughs and some good wine,later guess he had coming"unexpectedly" arrived at the good friends house, 2 women,who seem to be looking for action,if you know what I mean,and then came the surprise,I left to do bathroom duties, and then DH felt the need to ask for numbers exchange,but,there we are having fun,with a few I love you's later, and lots of hugs at the side,so what was missing from me that he felt the need to have 2 numbers,upon reaching home he stopped to get something at the grocery,and he left his wallet in the car,I somehow went through the wallet looking for god know's what,and I found the lovely two number's,well,I don't have to go into details after that,we all know what he said,"the girls gave it to him" and he was drunk so he did not know it was there.

I went home the next day and started thinking that maybe he has a different problem,now I am thinking he's a womanizer,or maybe a S addict,one or two lead me to ADHD, and the controlling behavior's I encountered with him over the last few month's being together with DH,to hoots with that now,my real reason maybe in figuring out ADHD in me, to one day help people in my small island of whom is not aware of it fully,I have been studying it a lot, and I would love to help other's one day with this problem, I am thinking maybe a coach.I have a long road ahead of me to do so and if I succeed I would be modified.


I just finished "Driven to Distraction" last week and now I'm reading "Driven From Distraction". These are great books and even after almost three years post diagnosis they help me. I need the knowledge fresh in my mind and don't want to slip backwards. The ADD never goes away, but the Adderall and knowledge help keep things in check. I have also thought of helping people with ADD, but I'm just a programmer and too old (46) to change directions now, so it can be a hobby of sorts for me :)

As far a ADD and Sex addiction goes, I may not be an addict, but I could be... Since I've been married, my worst fear is being away from home, drinking and being around people who would not be bothered by my ring. I have never cheated on my wife, because I KNOW this would be the Death Sentence for my marriage. Sober, I can handle this just fine, but too many drinks (I rarely drink anymore) and I fear that I would make the wrong choice if I were pursued and far from home, like at a work convention. I keep myself out of situations like this on purpose. When the convention event is over, I go to my room and go to bed. Safe and NOT sorry later. 


YYZ,this is very good,

This is very good YYZ, keep this type of motivation and sense of direction "UP" don't ever think for one moment that it's not worth the extra effort,so far I find you to be very positive,keep it up!


Up vs. Down

I always thought I had a really strange disposition. I've always acted on the "Glass is Half Full" mentality, but I also have a pretty dark side in my sense of humor, taste in music and movies and I'm not real quick to fully trust people. I have found that acting in positive ways works out most of the time and if I "Think" negative about something I can't motivate myself to even try...

Thanks, lovehurts...

You're never too old until you're dead

Sorry, I just had to throw that in there.  You are very wise and self-aware to know that certain situations would be "dangerous" for you and the life you want, and to stay out of those situations.  This strategy can apply to anything from shopping malls to cupcakes to alcohol to ... whatever someone wants to keep out of their life.  Most people, unfortunately, never make the connection between proximity and choice.  When you finish "Driven From Distraction" try this one:  "The Self-Centered Marriage".  great book.

Not dead yet ;)

I was kind of joking about being too old, by my DW would Freak Out if she thought I would even consider changing career directions. Plus, I REALLY like what I do (Programmer/Analyst). Thanks for the nice words, too. :) My self awareness, especially before diagnosis, was from near disaster experiences and just anxieties experienced in certain places. I'll take a look at your recommendation as well. I don't know about being wise :) , but I am pretty self aware and because of knowing myself pretty well, I know I NEED to Be Aware of my many weaknesses. 

Thanks Gardener