Today is my late husbands birthday (first husband). It's always a hard day for me, so today I have been posting old pictures, and videos from him. I was close with him even when we separated, and my H knew this from the beginning of our relationship. You would think after all these years he would remember. But nothing. Not a word. But he did change his social media pictures to ones with out me in them... Which was the only place he even had a picture of me in the first place. Stupid that it hurts like this.
stupid that I thought he would have at least acknowledged what to day is.
Stupid that that even though I know he is leaving that there is a part of me that wishes he would "wake up" and want to do what it takes.
Stupid that hat even through all of this I still love him when he so clearly doesn't love me.
Tonight I am just stupid. Tonight I just hurt with a hundred losses and no empathy from the one who should love me and protect me.