How do I get that "loving feeling" back???

I am wondering if any one has any suggestions on how to let go of the hurt and resentment that has built up inside me… I joined this site about a month ago and made a post about my suspicions of my husband having ADHD… well they were confirmed 100% and he was put on Aderall… the dose is low and though he has been faithful about taking them for the past few weeks… nothing has really changed or improved. I bought 2 copies of Melissa’s book “the ADHD effect on Marriage” and we each started reading it just days before his Dr’s appointment… so we are moving in the right direction… however I can't relax enough to be close to him anymore and I have such distrust because of all the lies over the past few years… especially over the stupidest little stuff… I feel very guilty for not wanting to be touched by him, and I understand that not all of our problems are the ADHD, but it has played a HUGE factor in all of it and the more I read the book, the more “AH, HA” moments I have about things that have happened over the past 6 years of our relationship that he has convinced me that were solely my fault… I do love him… but how do I get that “loving feeling back”???