It gets harder and harder by the hour.

He is very sick! not only ADHD but many other issues.I have never seen anything this bad before,he is not willing to take responsibilities for his terrible action's.

We are a sweet couple,we have loads of fun together when we go out,according to the environmental settings and the place and time,we would go out and kiss on the lips every 2 to 3 minutes and we don't care who is looking,we ARE soooo much in love.He has been my love and my sunshine through all the HERD times we have had together.We have a similar kind of likeness to food and socializing,we have the exact excitement for fun things together.Well I am about to go down the other side of my joys,along side them are our BIG fights and arguments over the MOST ridiculous things here goes.

He is upset I am on the internet,he hates that I own my own business and dealing with the public,he hates my dedication to my family/kids,he feels left out of the equation.I try my utmost best to spend as much time with him a possible so he does not feel left out,,, NOTHING I DO IS GOING TO MAKE IT BETTER.he has to get therapy and go on meds,I have come to my own realization that the only way in order for him to see things clearly is to get him in to therapy and on meds by the ADHD professionals,I know it won't solve all of the problems but it's a start.

He just would NOT go for treatment.I am having a lot of problems with him like:the porn every night the watching of the other woman,the "blame game" along that my most resent one is him rooting out my car battery from my car to stall me on the road.It cost me 9 hundred dollars of my own currency money not US dollars for my battery, which is a lot in my country.I live in the Caribbean.

Well the whole thing is I have to either leave him and stick to my plans and give him the option to go and start meds and therapy,or leave for good if he does not.I don't see things getting any better from my view and he has all these unrealistic dreams about having this woman, ANY woman including myself, to dedicate themselves to him and ONLY HIM.It's not going to happen,women will run run run from him,he is very sick he does not have ADHD alone but a train of disorders from my researches, and he has to get immediate help for this else his future is going to be bad for him especially for ANY relationship he was to be in,but that's not my problem if I am not with him at that time.

I left him to vent home alone for the weekend today and maybe he would STILL not get it ,but at least we would be in a place where we could get away from the fights.He is indeed a very sweet man when he is not in the "ADHD mood"but then again he has"ADHD with depressions"ADHD with anxiety"and many more,I have had a terrible and a wonderful experience with him thus far.But this is not going to get better from what I could see.

I am sad today to see this go down like this!!!! I know he could be sooo much better if he was to take some responsibility and MAN UP,but this is getting worse NOT better.I don't know what direction to proceed in right now,all I know is that we are losing each other b/c of ALL this.

lovehurts.