I am tired of it all. We used to have a long thread here where you could just post your vent of the moment. So I am doing that here.
I am so sick and tired of an addiction that keeps coming back and reminding me that I will *NEVER* matter as much as a game. EVER. I am looking forward to when things are just finished. At least then I can move on and start to heal my broken heart. Sounds like a stupid country song. I am tired of being the only one who gives a damn. I am tired of being the only one working hard at the commitment made. I am tired of the fakeness, the lies, the deceit that comes with someone who is just pretending until some future date they have in their head.
Whatever. I guess I am just tired of not mattering to the one who I should matter most too. I am tired of the love and care that I give never being returned.