I Now look in the mirror and what do I see, but a 46 year old man who has ADHD
Looking back at things now it all makes sense
As a kid I wasn't slow, stupid or dense
School was something that really didn’t make sense all it did was make me tense .
Sitting in Class Listening I was bored Art & gym only classes I really adored
I was charismatic and charming and had tons of friends
I was crazy and funny never sat still my Mom always said I had to chill
I just coped with these problems Inside of me because No one ever heard of ADHD
Sports was my thing, a Bat I could swing Baseball was my gift I played with ease even back then with ADHD .
As a young Teen Nothing I feared just needed my buddy’s and a cold case of beer
I did insane things that made mom wonder who is this boy so full of thunder
I realize now that it was me just coping with is ADHD
Just trying to find A new Thrill I didn’t know of treatments and a little pill
But through all the years & dumb things I’ve done there is 1 regret I wish was undone
I was blind to fact that I had my whole life that 1 regret was Hurting my wife
I am 46 now with 4 kids of my own and without Casey I feel so all alone
It took me seven plus years of not being aware but in my head I really did care .
I have the problem it is in me I was not wired correct I’m so sorry Casey
The fact that it destroyed my family & Me All I can blame is this damn ADHD
Now that I know I am relieved the only thing I wish that my family won’t leave
What I have learned in a short little time is all worth it for the Children of mine
My kids need their Dad to give them a good life even if I don’t have my wife
I promise to do the best that I can because I have always wanted to be this kind of man.
The past is just that it won’t be relived after 46 years I have received a gift
When you know it’s not only you many others have it and the same issues too
The Trust & respect that has been lost will push me to learn no matter the cost
I sit in my chair reading hour after hour because what I am learning Knowledge is power
Some good with the bad has come to be but I will always be a man with ADHD
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You are on your jouney. Find peace...
I see my DH in your words. I see myself in the hurt of your wife. My heart aches for you and your wife. You are brave to be doing something. Do not face your journey alone, find support. You becoming your best will be the best for you, your children and your dear Casey. My hope is that one day you/Casey can heal and be friends. My hope is that me and my DH will be able to remain friends.