Left the craziness a year ago - update

It's been over a year since I left my ADHD/psychopathic ex. He married less than a year after we split up, and he and new wife are moving soon, out of state. I actually spoke to her a few days ago -- she is very nice and probably as unsuspecting as I was. Her former passed away, and I felt sorry for what she is going to be facing, sooner or later. When I saw him today from a distance, there was no emotion. He had been so abusive. After splitting up, I used to tremble. I had to go to counseling for anxiety. I lost every shred of self-confidence I had. I had a terrible fear of "something" that I couldn't describe. But today I'm "back" and seeing him was like seeing any other neighbor. No emotion, no self-doubt, no sadness, and no regrets. Not my problem anymore.

I always felt like I was nothing special to him -- just another warm body to keep him from being alone. And now there is a strange relief in knowing what I felt was true. He picked up another warm body as soon as I left.

Best wishes to all of you still in crazymaking relationships that make you feel like there is no hope -- love you all. But I'm outa here ---

lynnie70

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Lynnie, congratulations on

Lynnie, congratulations on getting out.  I'm sad for all you went through, but you made a comeback! Cheers!

I do feel sorry for his new wife/next victim.  Guess she'll have to find out for herself.  Glad you're not in her shoes anymore!