Hypersensitivity and an Overwhelming mind...It's not by design and or even desire that the inability to communicate calmly is such a reality for many of us. It's also not the lack of love or even respect and/ or commitment in many cases....It's the working of the mind...When the mind is so cluttered with diseased thinking. When everything is in such an emotional, and psychological state for the mind that it responds (it's thinking flows out in words) without thinking (no filter) it's ability to start and continue peacefully is severely hampered if not impossible. Making Healthy, Peaceful and Constructive Communication almost impossible in most attempts. (This truth is the reality of our day to day efforts)
After each episode of our failed attempts to engage the process of speak/Listen for understanding/ reply/ listen for understanding. The next thought many of us are silently thinking is why would I try? I know better...Yet, the desire for fruitful, calm sharing of life spurns us on, so we continue day after day...
When we deal with minds, (our own and others) we should make every effort to learn. Everyday is a revelation with it's own truths about ourselves and those we need to communicate with. I need to hold tight to these nuggets of truth, so I want have to wonder why I wasn't prepared for what constant reality has already taught me.
If my pockets are full of these revelations, these nuggets of truth. But, as I walk along I just let them slip out of my hand and fall behind me, due to my minds overwhelming desire to see the beauty of it's view of life come to fruition...Then I'm doomed to repeat the process....So my mind has bought into it's view, and it presses on for those moments it so longs for to appear....
So I have to ask myself this Question...Can I be a positive thinker, one with hope, and faith, one who continues to desire peaceful healthy communication, and still be subject enough to the fruit (reality) of the past to allow this reality to teach me wisdom and truth about the limitations of how our minds gel? Or will I continue to cleave to the Fairy Tale:)....Lord give us your wisdom, save us from Blame denial and anger this day...in Jesus name...amen.
With God all things are possible!