A moment in time

Every now and then in conversation my adhd h will open a window and I experience the person I love. But it seems within minutes of conversation the window closes and suddenly a new view is there which is totally different from the one I just saw. It's like you feel wow they are really hearing me right now seeing me they are with me. Then out of nowhere they are back in a fog discussing some completely random topic and you can't get back to ground zero again. It isn't only when we have seriously discussions otherwise I would think it is just avoidance. It is random. Does anyone else experience this? It leaves me lonely because I know he is in there and I always want him to come back. To feel connected. I know it never lasts though. I can't imagine he does it purposely.