New to forum, but not to ADHD

I am seeking support and hopefully beable to share some as well. My life is unmanageable in just about every area right now and I don't think the bottom can go much lower. Trying to take care of myself in the midst of losing our farm, and potentially our animals. Long story short at least for now is that with the farm up for sale needless to say the "expectations" that I know I shouldn't have knowing what I do about ADHD I am still struggling with and ready to rip my hair out. It has been very stressful and feel like in addition to having the property ready to sell I feel like I am having to tell my spouse of 13 years what to do. He is sooooo dependent on me and that is partly my fault for allowing it to get to this point. I will post more later. I need to feed our animals. I just want some peace of mind and know I have to find that within myself. I'm just having a hard time grieving everything right now including a marriage that is not meeting my needs in any way. I've tried every way I know how to try and make this work, I'm exhausted emotionally and physically. Need to pull my self out of the self pity. Will post more later. I'm glad I found this forum. Thanks for letting me share.