Now what?!

My husband just started Ritalin, yesterday. I am mortified, afraid, angry, and trying to decide if I should hang in there. It's been such an uphill battle. He is the life of the party among our friends whereas I'm the old shoe. We're not even forty!!!! And I keep thinking, "Is it gonna get better?" "Am I gonna be ok with the 'what-ifs'?" I just don't know what to do. And feel worried that it's going to take a long time for him to get it together. I'd rather be on my own, knowing that I can take care of me and my son. But I also know that he's trying. That he listened to his own voice stating that something is wrong; he found a therapist/psychiatrist and voila, classic diagnosis of ADHD. So why don't I feel ok?  Vmama