I've been meaning to catch up, but have been so busy and haven't been allowing myself to spend too much time doing anything that isn't related to earning any money, cooking, cleaning or dealing with kids.
BUT wanted to check in and tell y'all that I FINALLY have been getting my ass outa bed in the morning and going for a run. I read something about 6-8AM being the best time to run because of cortisol levels or something and that it really boosts concentration. I don't know how true this is, but it really does make a difference for me. For MONTHS i would try: I'd set my alarm and just turn it off without even knowing it, or i'd just chicken out. Finally one morning the alarm went off, I thought, UUUUUGGHGHGH!!!! I looked at the clock and then thought to myself, "Dang-it: YYZ is probably already back home with a coffee cup in his hand. I can do this!!!"
So I got up and ran ONE mile.
the next day was 1000x harder to get up, but I did it. I did it because i'm so tired of being tired... and now I actually look forward to it (also because it's the only time I have to myself!)
I don't manage it every day - and I am pretty grumpy on the days I miss out - but it's made a huge difference in my CONFIDENCE believe it or not. There is just a weird sense of clarity to my decision making these days.
I still have a long way to go, but just wanted to check in....