I seem to be constantly trying to craft a sentence in my mind of how I feel and what I've done and what I want. I found this online and paraphrased it and seem to be able to attach it to my self.
"I have borne the consequences of my spouse's irresponsibility. I have exhausted every means of restoration. I have loved without reservation. I have returned good for childish, uncaring attitude and lack of commitment. I have sacrificed my dignity and self-respect for the sake of my household. I have done more than most would do."
That is where I am. Now, I am trying to craft a sentence of how I want to proceed knowing who I am (want to be again) and finding strength to move forward.