someone please help us.....

My husband was diagnosed with ADHD and Bi-polar, which includes depression and anxiety.... We have been married for almost 6 years, and after about our first MAGICAL 3 mos its been a real struggle. We have had 6 different counselors, both individual and marriage, it seems to get better for awhile but ALWAYS goes back to the same crap. We have been separated probably 4 times, and I almost divorced him in Jan

I know all the typical symptoms of ADD but does anyone elses add spouse act like a child??? like literally he torments and teases me and our children the way a big brother would. kicking and pushing to the point where they cry and then he laughs. I dont know what to do....

Also no matter how hard i try, I still continue to do EVERYTHING for him, I find him jobs, I make his dr appts, I pick up his meds, etc.... I ve tried to just let him do it but then he doesnt do it and that affects our family.

He has been in and out of jobs for the last 3 years. We currently live in a bedroom in the basement of his brothers house with our three kids.

I almost committed suicide a few weeks ago- I know its horrible and selfish, but I feel like im in a black hole that never gets better. I feel like im the only one that cares. I feel like he just keeps me around for convenience, I am more of a mother than a wife

I also have a VERY angry 3yr old and my 9 yr old has ADHD and oppositional defiant disorder.

How do I get him to take me seriously??? He knows ill never go through with a divorce. How do I get him to realize that his behavior is killing me?

I desperatly need a help meet, a companion not a 40 yr old teenager

Please help me