I'm sorry but I feel the need to vent today. Even if nobody reads this it makes me feel better. :)
My ADHD husband (diagnosed but not treated) just got a new job last week. This is about 30 something for him in our 7 year marriage and most don't last more than a few months, if that. This ones seems promising but unfortunately he has been out of work so long that we are broke and only have one decent vehicle. I have a business and have to have the decent car to get to work so he was driving his old van. Well it broke down and needed $650 in repairs. I have arranged for a ride to work for the past couple of days but when I asked him about getting his van back he told me he had no money to pay for it and wanted me to pay. Well I happen to know he has stashed away $500 for emergencies so I told him to use that and i would pay the difference. He refused. Said it was for emergencies only. What??? Really??? Isn't that what we are dealing with here? If you don't have a vehicle you can't get to work! Public transportation is not available so he needs a vehicle. But then he started talking about how he really didn't want to keep this job anyway... Ahhhh so that's what this is all about. I was furious! I need help financially and he refuses to maintain a job. I'm at my wits end!
I called his mother because I just wanted to let her know that I don't think I can deal with this anymore. I told her I have tried and I know I'm not easy to live with because I've become angry and resentful but that I've stuck by him and I've just reached the end of my rope. She said she saw a documentary done by Dr. Amen that was called Healing ADD at Home in 30 Days. Has anyone heard of this man? She was quite impressed by the research he has done. His wife and kids have ADD and he has spent 30 years researching this disorder. My mother-in-law asked me to look him up online and see if my husband would look into it. I emailed him the link but honestly I don't know if my heart is in it. I have put up with so much from this man and I just want to get on with my life. I know that sounds awful because i took vows and made promises but I really just want this roller coaster ride to stop so i can get off!