The U-haul is packed and is towing the car. I have a long, long drive ahead. It's so bittersweet. I want and NEED to leave and I'm excited to return home, but I'm so sad to leave him behind and take our son away with me. He's a wonderful person underneath the ADHD, depression, and low self esteem. I just can't carry it all anymore. Still, I look forward to his arrival next year. I'm sure (I sure hope that) we'll be great friends and parents.