The U-haul is packed and is towing the car. I have a long, long drive ahead. It's so bittersweet. I want and NEED to leave and I'm excited to return home, but I'm so sad to leave him behind and take our son away with me. He's a wonderful person underneath the ADHD, depression, and low self esteem. I just can't carry it all anymore. Still, I look forward to his arrival next year. I'm sure (I sure hope that) we'll be great friends and parents. 

Best wishes

Good luck making a healthy and happy new life for you and your son.

Go Lauren

Lauren, I know it must be so sad to leave, but at the same time, you know you are doing the right thing. I know, it is tough to be the one who leaves! Best to you and your son. You have your whole life ahead of you. Safe travels. 

I'm glad you are headed to a

I'm glad you are headed to a healthy place. I've done that big uhaul truck with 4-point car trailor in tow across the country a few times. I thought it was bad when I just had an apartment and personal posessions, but we did that dance last year with a 5-person family out of a 3-bedroom house. You'll get through it.

I hear the bittersweet part. Though I'm totally in agreement with this situation it does pain me to hear about these ultimate consequences of long disconnect. No one necessarily at fault, just a sad occurrence. I keep thinking of that phrase you imagine old, pipe-smoking British guys with full white beards muttering, "... a bad business."