What breaks your heart about your relationship?

I've been divorced for more than three years.  I think I'm reasonably well adjusted to the divorce.  But every once in awhile, something will happen or I'll read something and I'll feel a sense of heartbreak. Just now, while reading, I came across this line:  "He seems to constantly appreciate something simple about our lives...: we get to spend time together."

My ex said he wanted to stay married, but his behavior suggested otherwise; he avoided spending time with me.  He scheduled his days and arranged his life around not being with me.  And when apart, which we were at his choosing, he didn't communicate with me by phone or computer.  This still breaks my heart.