I get so frustrated with myself for apologizing all the time when my ADD husband and I get into conflict. He always tells me why I am wrong to feel what I feel or react how I react. I honestly wish I was just a robot and then maybe there would be peace in this household. If only I didn't have feelings, expectations, frustrations and heaven forbid negative reactions to anyone else's behavior that lives under my roof. I'm not allowed to express any of this or I am "unloading" on him. It takes about 500 positive interactions to make up for any negative interaction with him. So, that means that I am basically doomed. Not to mention that he twists things I say when we try to have a conversation and I end up feeling insane most of the time. It is so incredibly tiring.