I had a moment this morning ( tears ) that had nothing to do with grieving. It had nothing to do with the past....it was more like a "home coming" experience....as if you've been searching for something all your life, and then finally finding it inside yourself...that's the location...it doesn't exist in 3-Dimentional time or space.
And here's the striking contrast between where I am ( my true location ) and the true conditions that exist.
- True conditions: I awoke this morning with the outisde temperatures nearing 22°F. My resources are limited. I'm outside of cell range. I have no heat source other than the engiine in my SUV ( AWD ) which I only turn on for 5 minutes...unless I absolutung have to. I have a bear proof cooler that keeps ice for 8 days @ 70°F. I have very little food with me, but plenty of water. There are no towns or address where I am...only a GPS coordinate....but the view out my window is incredible....beyond belief. Sitting on the egde of a cliff..approximatly 50ft feet from the rim....overlooking out over a river valley, an entire Mountain Range behind it...that just recieved a dump of new snow. Two nights ago, I was in a Squall, of sustained winds with 60mph+ gusts, accompanied by penetrating water vapor that made seeing and moving nearly impossible...as the sun was going down...and light was becoming scarce.
- My gift: that made....not just surviving this....but thriving in it poosible. This IS the Hunter Archetype...I was made to do by inherent design. It's the Zone, and Im not just visiting this time, I'm immersed in it 24/7....its a way of life. I've just crossed over into a different realm of being that's been transformative at the very least.
- What I did: I bought a second hand, high gain directional cell phone booster attenae ( parabolic type ) with an amplied range of 20 miles when dialed in. Bingo...5 bars...better than in town. Its what makes connection possible. Step one in the process.
- Step two: Area mapping. Determining food sources, supply routes, maximizing enery consrvation and efficiency both at the same time.
- Step 3: Creating blue prints, building archetecture, and systems intigration across multiple domains.
- Step 4: Experimenting and testing, and redefining, experimenting and testng and testing again, improving, redefining...as an ongoing pattern, learning from failure...not from mistakes.
- Execution: Taking from what I alresdy own; both phyically and mentally; knowlege, adaptation, phyisical limitatations, asset maximization, coherant structures, systems integration, fully tested architectectures all become a known quantity. Facts and numbers are no longer necessary...within the Zone, actions are no longer reactions, everthing becomes intinct ...gut responses are what you follow, you lead with intention.
- Assets: Integrated sleeping system. Two high perfomance sleeping bags; Gortex for condensation, Goose Down for warmth. Energy...body heat loss ( maximized and efficient ) no other source of heat is needed. Primary survival tool....first on the list behind water and food. Resupply trips become unnecessary. Pay up front...the gift that keeps on giving. Down stream thinking applied. Toasty warm...@ 15° F.
- Assets: Vehicle; 4x4 wheel capaple. 16ton hand chain winch, 10ton snatch block ( doubling power 2:1 ), redundant system; 3ton chain winch creates an applied, itegrated system of multiple vector pulling power. When you get stuck in the mud...you've got a way to get yourself out.
- Assets: Vehicle. Becomes shelter. Maslows heirchy of needs; lower rung satisfied.
- Assets: Advanced Shelter. "Shiftpod" self contained environment. NASA inspired design. Queen sized bed ( inflatable mattress ) capable; height 6'7" X 14'. Geodesic Dome construction in a "pop up tent " design. Set up time = 10 minutes. Collapases into a travel bag in another 10 to 15 minutes. Efficiency maximized. Portable; reflective outside material can witstands environments up to 120°F. Options: air conditioning, desiel heater...4 season rating.
Heres the most important part. I came up with this overall plan....in my head, without any outside help....before.....I ever did it. I envisioned it, aquired the assets, and excecuted it ...flawlessy.
It's why I started tearing up this morning. I'm in the Zone...it seems effortless. Cognitive load is extremely low....bandwidth is extremely high....executive function ( and potential ) is maximized.
J








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One more thing
I ran out of Adderall. I'm functioning like this without chemical reinforcement.
As Mr Spock would say....facsinating.
And just an FYI: Its now 37° outside. I'm no longer in my speeping system....and its 66° inside the cabin of my vehicle.
The only thing Im wearing is a Alpaca Scarf...a wool hat, two layers wicking perfornance long sleeve tops ( Capliene ), another thin Capliene bottoms, Jeans, Merino wool boot socks, and Down booties.
And if I had to choose what I'd give up first and last?
In order first: One top and jeans. Last...Down booties and Hat. In that order.
J