Hello guy's...
Just wanted to stop in and say hello to my long time friends and co-encouragers...My divorce has been final for 6 months now...I've been cleaning and remodeling for 6 months...My house is clean and mostly empty...After 17 years of being subjected to hoarding, I'm more of a minimalist than not...;) I've had a new roof put on, and a new living room floor installed and a new deck out back...I'm done w/ the inside for now, (will continue to upgrade lite fixtures to LEDs', and I am just about done painting the outside (shudders left)...I'm in a pretty good place mentally and emotionally...thank the Lord!...Still working through it all some...I miss caring for her...I drive by her house on occasion (2.5 miles from me)...Just looking to see if she has done the things I told her needed done for safety reason's...I miss being her mother lol...A few days ago my 9 year old grandson had grandparents day at his school...I went and she was standing there w/ him...It was a little emotional for me...She looked like she has lost 20 pounds at least, no boobs (usually had big one's)...I spoke, and she did too, She stepped away while I spent a few minutes w/ him...I loved on him and told him I would see him later (took him for pizza later on)...I just needed to get away so I could breathe...I told you that I had called a former co-worker shortly after the divorce was final, to go to a movie....Well we have became close!...I've dumped all my pent up love onto her!...She has been alone 4 years years from an abusive alcoholic husband (who cheated)...She is beautiful and sweet as they come...And I did just what the counselor told me to watch out for....A heart that is as dry as old sponge when it comes to kindness....She and I have backed up from those deep penetrating kisses, and intense making out..(no sex thank the lord) and have tried to just be friends...(still kiss some LOL) Difficult! but, for the best for now...I need time...She is 9 years younger and loves her independence (and me :)....But she say's she isn't interested in marriage, and wants me to date other women...She is right of course, I've been a husband all of my adult life (20 yrs old)...So I'm going to start dating! lol...We'll see how it goes...I'm so shy face to face...So this is going to be something I have to press through...I've got several women on face book that have been showing interest, but I've ignored it....But, I do hate being alone...But I just love company, companionship, intimacy etc...She tells me, you need a wife...I told her well you may introduce me to my next wife...Caught her off guard I think...She just looked stunned for second, and then smiled and said, "Well I have high standards"...lol...
I hope all of you guy's married or divorced, are progressing in all aspects of life!...<3
lots of love
c
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So happy for you!
C, I’m happy to hear that you’re happily moving forward with your life. I’m glad you are taking it slow, too. It gives you time to get to know yourself instead of focusing on all of your ex’s problems. You were good to her, and many women are looking for a kind patient partner like you! Your time will come! Until that time, enjoy the freedom and peace you so rightly deserve.