I'm not sure what to do about my current situation - moreso about taking steps in the right direction and not just burying my head in the sand.... but my spouse has just deteroirated before my eyes over the last 2-3 years. Moreso in the last 6-10 months. It's just nothing any of us do is getting through that there's an issue or a problem. Not that HE'S the problem, it's the unmanaged symptoms and its that he just doesn't handle stress AT ALL. He can't handle life or stress or any of it.
It's like watching a train wreck happen before your eyes in slow motion and being traumatised by it and freezing/fawning and getting hit by shrapnel of the wreck and letting some hit those around you too (like my 12 yo son for example) and then realising that you're bleeding but the wreckage is still happening around you. And my husband just keeps making impulsive decision after impulsive decision and its making things worse and worse for himself and me too, pretty much.
And I just don't know what to do about it or stop it or what i CAN even do. I'm pretty much just letting him suffer the consequence of his own actions and behaviours. But he's getting deeper and deeper and this is just more than what I can really take on and handle.
I have a trip coming up shortly that I'm going on my own, and I'm kinda holding out for that but I can't help but realise I'm doing the: 'When XX happens, THEN I'll be OK' which doesn't really work.
Anyone else?
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Get out?
I’m sorry Off the Roller, I probably am such a pain. But to answer your question: when a train crashes in slow motion, I believe there’s very little a person can do except use the slowness of destruction by getting out of there.