Divorce about to come to fruition... But.....

Hello...

Been awhile since i posted... As a quick recap, i am a non ADHD/ADD spouse in a marriage to an ADD/ADHD woman. A woman i love immensely.. Back in December my wife had a 3 day "Episode" that was the final straw... She had been abusing her Adderol in addition to Vodka... and no sleep... I cannot describe how TOXIC this combo is... I have seen it before, but not to this extent. My wife and i have been married going on 5 yrs... We have been together since late 2010.... She is an incredible woman when she's not in her MANIC ( my words) state.

In December, i left our home... I filed for Divorce,I retained an attorney, as did she.. Things were very rocky for 4 months.. On April 1st... after we had only been communicating about divorce, Business, she randomly text me stating that ( i hope i can say this) that she was H**** and want to simply have sex.. Neither of us had been with anyone in 4 months.. I actually though it was an April Fools prank f***ing with me... Sex was not good prior to seperation... It was going through the motions, for her... As the Adderol , alcohol kept her from "feeling sexual".. Anyway, i took her up on it... We did the deed... It was incredible... and after we were able to catch up, converse, and be nice to each other..

In the past 4 months she has stopped drinking, She has changed doc's... Her new Doc has diagnosed her with Anxiety Disorder, not ADD/ADHD... Is that possible? He took her off Adderol and prescribed her an SSRI.... Celexa.. She had been taking Adderol since 2009!!! She is so pleasant to be around now... bright eye's, Brilliant smile, and her personality is back... We are putting our home on the market next month... She does not want the Divorce but respects and supports my decision to get a Divorce.. She has also OWNED her part and her regret of treating me like she did so many times. She loves me, and i her... We have spent some time together just chatting, catching up... We have had Sex a couple more times and each time was better than the other...

The Divorce will go through... But here is my dilemma... She says she wants to date to show me that she is different, She says she would have NEVER seek'd out help professionally had it not cost her her marrriage... She doesn't want to lose us... I love her, i Love being around her now We are the same age... I am 57, she 56... We click, We have both been cheated on in our previous marriage, neither of us are adultrers...

Is it possible to change, forever? She has said that she may go away ( out of state) to reboot.. Her job will allow her to work remotely.. The thought of starting over at my age is scary... I really don't care to.. My wife is drop dead gorgeous and can control a room when she walks in... Selfishly, the though of her with another man freaks me out.. She feels the same about me and tells me so... ( i live in the Gym) Very good shape!! We compliment each other...

Do any of you have experience similar to mine? I am open to your thoughts, opinions pertaining to my situation. I appreciate you taking time to read. I have a thick skin so fire away....

Thanks again...