I'm just wondering if there's anyone here that has some ways to cope/deal when the loneliness really hits in. This is no way to live, I know this but today was just really tough. 5 min of conversation was all I got. The entire day. And he decided that because he was tired and worked a full day (I too have a full time job and can't understand why I feel like I don't deserve rest too) that he went to bed at 6.30 and im left on my own for another day in a row.
It's just too much and I know it's not right, but have no idea how to change it. I'm furious and heart broken all at once. Even my 11 year old asked me why I look so sad. I cant even cover it up anymore. And then the guilt sets in about that.
I know its not sustainable for long term, my health is shocking but ironically I do a lot to take care of myself snd counter the high levels of stress that my body goes through each day. But I know it's a bandaid.
Tonight I committed to sleeping without the phone in the room and tomorrow im going to get some exercise and walk with a friend. But if anyone can share their experiences of being lonely and a married single parent, and perhaps a coping strategy or 2 while I let my emotions calm down.
