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I'll start out by saying that I am the ADD spouse. My husband and I met 16 years ago and dated for 6 years before getting married. I was diagnosed with ADHD about 2 years into our marriage. Like anyone else we had our share of problems. Before being diagnosed it had gotten to the point that he was being very aggressive and cruel to me - I had even researched emotional abuse (which he did discover when I accidently left a web page up on my computer.) Some things he accused me of were lying, cheating, having a gambling and/or drug problem.

I know that we each have different situations and we're dealing with variations in personality and severity of add, but I would appreciate any comments you can offer.

Last night, add spouse initiated an attack. This one did not escalate, because I did my best to remain calm, outwardly. Inwardly, my turmoil brought me to pray to God for wisdom. In the middle of the night, I woke myself up screaming from a nightmare. I watched him fiddling with something on his arm first, and then on my arm. I looked down at the place I'd seen him pick it up and realized that he was using a razor blade. He had sliced the blade across his arm, but there was no wound, so he was testing it out on me.

I met what I thought was my souls mate 4 years ago.  Obstacle after obstacle, reason after reason, chaos after chaos has made the last 4 years a weekly roller coaster!  A year and a half ago my partner finally begin taking medication for her ADHD.  I know believe she is under medicated and under treated, but chooses to rely on just her one time doctor appointment and 4 pills a day to state she has made changes to better things and anything beyond that is just me wanting to change everything about her.

Each time I visit this place, I wonder when or if I'll have anything to post on this forum about Hope.

Today, for the first time, seems that maybe there's a sproutling of non-negativity in me. Can't quite call it positivity yet, but close :)

For the past few days, I wrote myself onto the work schedule for regular hours and I have stuck to them!

This was a big Whoo Hoo, because I've been trained to feel duty-bound to be here at husband's shop every moment, at beck and call.

Today, I clocked out for lunch and...  Left !  and...  actually ate lunch!!

My husband (ADHD) and I separated today. We've been having severe marital problems for over a year.  I had found out yesterday that he was looking for rooms to rent and calling family court so I asked him about it, he blew up (as he's been doing about anything I try to talk about in the last two years) left and didn't return until this morning.  He packed his things and said it is over.  He does not believe our marriage can work because we have different personalities (who doesn't?).

I've overlooked many things, been patient, worked with him, talked things out with him, humored him, accepted him...

But there are times where I wonder, is it the ADHD or is he just a jerk? Am I excusing more than I should, because of his ADHD?

My husband denies his ADD. He did very well on Adderall but quit taking it because he didn’t like to go to the doctor for refills. When I try to talk to him about anything at all, he gets angry. If I ask any question, he perceives it as an accusation. We have been married 32 years. I told him the night we met that I did not date men who smoked. He lied and said he did not. I told him I would not marry him if he didn’t quit, he did for only a short time. I would ask every birthday and Christmas if he would quit. He would say that he would if… I would fulfill my part but he still did not.

Well, I started the process of filing for divorce yesterday.  Every time I filled out a field in the form my heart broke more.  I am so sad that I can barely function.  This isnt what I wanted.  I did everything I could to stop this.  Even though I am the one pulling the trigger so to speak, I do so unwillingly.  I do so with the greatest and deepest sadness.  I paid the attorney, filled out the case questionaire, and from there they prep the docs, send over to me for approval then they file.  I would go to the moon and back to somehow change this before its final.  But I know it wont happe